`Sunday, March 26, 2006;__
how is mankind like? anyone can tell mi. i m sick, i m tried... let mi tell u a story, on the 25rd nite my baby and i was together and we use to enjoy the life like this.. old route carry out the same.. till morning i still being awke by a monster(gini). i hate the voice of hers.. dame sharp and like to come my room and disturb mi in a fucking mornig when i am hugging my baby...is amost every sat feel so angry about that.. help my baby to do her thing is my presure.. after doing her thing just wanna play maple for a while but she get piss of evertime.. why.. can someone tell mi..iszt my fault.. helping her to do all those stuff nearly and hour. just wanna releax for a while.. to play my maple also cannot.. she still ask mi whether she can play online pool .. what this.. then she tell mi that she don feel wel... so sad.. my heart is so pain. when i saw her lieing on my bed and telling me bee, i in great pain.. that nothing i can do but to try and save her. get her pill to stop her cramp and get her warm water.. hope this will help... sleeping with her till my baby tell mi beee.. feel better le.. i was at a joy but know the pain will come back anytime.. faster take her to take a cab so that she can go home and take a rest... 26rd went out with my brother onthe nite.. so happy to see darly and shoren back to normal again. went to ktv to sing.. feel so happy with them evertime.. baby call at 4 and ask mi where am i... told her that i with them. but her voice suddlen change.. i know that she angry. but why???? so i in a bad mood now.. went drink with them and they tell mi to relax.. after u drink and go a take a good rest.. dud think too much.. feel so tried at the time le.. take a nap but they wake mi up and ask mi whether i m ok.. i say of course i m ok.. i m not drunk.. is just that veri tried.. so i told them i leaving ... it was amost 6 in the morning. took a cab and reach home... strip and change then sleep.. just wanna close my eye and my hp rang// is baby.. told her i m veri tried and she hang up... till 4 wake up and open my com and call her.. listen to her angry voice again... sign in to my msn and saw wat.. she wrote DO U KNOW DO U CARE DO U BOTHER AND DO U GIVE A FUCK DAME.. WHAT DID i done.. pls can some one tell mi.. i m veri veri veri tried.. 4.43pm 26rd
`_____LISTEN TO MY HEART_____ 12:01 AM
`Tuesday, March 07, 2006;__
so hate
today is so shack men.... hate the life of my hold ns.. everything gonna do with mi.. how come.. y can'nt my life be just the same like the other like other.. just wanna relax.. is that so diffcult. many thing in life change. now i know.. is just not the way u thing.. letting go don'st mean giving up.. is just that i need some time to think,keep my mind clear.. pls. for goodness sick.. dun push mi to hard,.. i m still a human.. not and alien.. hope my ns will end so.. today i broken a pomise.. to my bee.. sorry,,, really to tried le.. hope u not angry at mi.. k ....
never give up till the end of ur time.never give up till the end of ur life
wat u need is wat u get. wat u think is wat u have..
`_____LISTEN TO MY HEART_____ 4:30 AM
`Monday, March 06, 2006;__
to everone
today was a veri tring day for mi.. a lot of thing to do.. feel so shack out.. to my bee bee.. sorry to make u cry sometime.. i did'nt mean any hurt to u.. just sometime out of my temper... u alway know that i hard outside by soft inside... just talk to me nice la.. not that i bad rite.. been with u for neary four month.. really veri happy that i a veri nice and wonderful laupao.. really understand me a lot.. i hope that in this feel month.. my ns life will be veri tild and ur school too... just bear for another 3 month.. until aug.. everything willl turn out like fairly tale to u and mi.. i wanna let the hold word know yhat u are my one and only baby. sorry to hurt u some time.. sorry baby.... form ur monkey bebe
`_____LISTEN TO MY HEART_____ 7:42 AM
`Tuesday, January 10, 2006;__
Really have a great time.. went to Mos with all my brother. drink until wanna siao chi.. i think is fun to go out with them. dud know y la. my baby call mi and tell mi that he just came back from hospital.. my hold soul fly out of the place. i was like thinking, me, as a boyfriend can'nt even take care of her. at the moment of time.. i feel pain in my heart.. just dud wanna loose her. really love her too deep.and just now she told mi that her father saw my pic and told her that i a bad guy.. because of tattoo... do tatto always being pick up. tatto means bad.. bad mermory keep flasing on my mind..... wat pass is pass.. dud take it so hard...
`_____LISTEN TO MY HEART_____ 4:44 AM
`Saturday, January 07, 2006;__
so sick today... met my baby for breakfast and went to my house.. she not feeling well too. yesterday spend the hold day with her.. so wonderfull.. really love her alot alot. time past veri fast. is going to to be our secound month..
`_____LISTEN TO MY HEART_____ 11:03 PM